same old, same old.
boyfriend troubles, not like anyone is really interested in those. but seriously, i can't wrap my head around the fact that people admit to liking/loving you, insist on chasing you for 8 months, destroy your self, and finally realize you were where they were supposed to be. and yet now, you treat them as if they don't exist.this is my true story.
boy, if you're reading this, you make me feel nonexistent. go back to chasing me, when i was more than just a prize, but a person, a woman you wanted to spend forever with.
other than that everything is going well. school starts on monday, the previous post has been resolved however the feelings are still there, but hidden. i don't know if i want to include a friend that i had for a very long time back into my life. she backstabbed, hurt, lied, cheated on me, but there's something about her that i miss. she recently told me how much she missed me, and boy did i miss her. she was a close friend, and i feel stupid for allowing her to get back into my lifestyle, and ill feel even more stupid when she hurts me again. amber tells me what she feels. she's right 3485046704560598604% of the time. so unfortunately i'm staying clear of her, even though i wish more than anything to be friends with her again. if the time comes i truly hope she can prove herself, and i can at last call her friend again.
oh boy, abother break for a new paragraph, but... yes, but i have nothing left to say. i can leave you with a list of what im feeling and that might actually help me feel better.
hopeless
romantic
lonely
betrayed
missed
loved
annoyed
old
upset
the "ishouldmeanmore" mood too.
goodnight whoever is out there.
.cris